Okay, so I know that most of you probably don't want to hear all the ins and outs of this much-wanted pregnancy, but it's my blog, right? And, at this point in my life, this is about as big as it gets, so if you don't want to indulge me, now would be the time to stop reading. :-)
Yesterday was my 15 week check-up. Most of you know that we have really struggled with having a child over the past year, so to say that I've been nervous about all of this is an understatement. So, anyway, I went yesterday, silently begging God that things would be okay the entire way to Bowling Green. Thank you God...everything was, as Dr. Gass likes to say, "Perfect." The nurse found that sweet, sweet heartbeat after about 10 seconds (though it seemed like 10 minutes), I measured exactly on target, and apparently, this might actually happen!?!?! I'm sure to those of you who have never had "trials" in having a child, that seems crazy. But I think that I have been so guarded through all of this, that I have always secretly wondered in the back of my mind if this was really happening. Is God really giving me another child? Can I really let my heart and mind start to believe that we are going to get a second shot at this?
After telling all my fears and ailments (there seem to be a lot of them this go 'round) to Dr. Gass, he began reassuring me as only he can. I left there yesterday afternoon thinking that maybe, just maybe, this really IS happening! I guess God knew I needed a little bit more of a nudge, so to beat it all, I am 99.9% sure that I felt the baby for the first time today. It happened three times in a row and it was such a WONDERFUL feeling. I had almost forgotten how special it is to feel that.
So, I'm not exactly sure why I felt compelled to get all that off my chest, but you guys are my friends, and I just wanted to share my rollercoaster of emotions with you. Tomorrow, I'm going to unpack maternity clothes and actually hang them in the closet because it appears that I'm going to need them for a while! :-) Thanks for all your prayers. Please keep them coming!
OOH....I almost forgot! We scheduled our ultrasound for May 14th at 3:30! Only 3 weeks and 6 days until we can start calling "it" by a real name! YAY!